So, I quit art about 2 months ago, and actually within that time, I already returned to art, but I've completely changed my mindset, I will make art less often, and post whenever I feel like it, I will not concentrate on how much content I make nor how much I'll post it, Regardless I'm exited to come back to posting with this new mindset!

Also, I'll probs post a lot for a bit because I have been drawing a bit but posting basically nothing! so, time to fix that.

Yeah, you read that right, I'll be quitting art.

For years now, I've found minimal joy in art, depending on other peoples praise to find my own art enjoyable and defining my worth by how much art I can make and how well, while the process and end product otherwise is just a bother, an un-enjoyable drag.

I won't stop being creative, I might pick up new creative hobbies such as writing or music, tough I might need a while of creating absolutely fuck-all, sorry if you followed for my art and no longer will see any.

Will I come back to it? idk, I might not, but that's irrelevant to me, if I never come back to it, that's ok, it no longer serves me, it isn't fun and its just a pain, and the mere thought of leaving art already feels freeing.

Yeah, sorry for those who enjoyed my art and looked forward to more! But this is what I need in my life to move on and be happy

I might have my art fluxuate a lot, idk, maybe- maybe not! but just wanting to say that

Yeah probably getting repetive now but I think I'll stop now commenting on my mental health.

It has severe ups and downs, some days I feel on top of the world and others I feel under it all, even when it makes no sense, such as having perfect days when i feel awful, or the worst days and I feel amazing.

For that reason, I will most likely stop making these text posts about my mental health here, As its giving a false idea of how I'm actually doing.

Not to mention, its better for me to refrain that for friends, myself, or theraphist/s.

So, It was a long time Since I've posted here, I've been busy looking for a job or prioritizing hanging out with my friends or partner, as well as just having time to myself watching shows and playing games.

My mental health has gotten better, I DO get ups and downs but its not NEARLY as bad as it used to be, in fact, I think within this decade its been at an all time high! the ups last a lot longer and its easier to look away from drama and not engage in general bullshittery.

I am less confident in my art, I'll be honest. It's not as appreciated as it used to be, Idk if that's just me getting worse or something spesific I wont go into detail about, or just me not seeing the worth in it? Either way, art game is not going good, but I'm sure once i get a new theraphist, I'll be able to get to the bottom of it and get back to doing art with joy and passion!

Yeah, Idk what else to speak about here, but I hope I can manage to remember to keep posting art here

Hey, just so you know, ill be a part of artfight, most of my attacks will be traditional, but hey, i think thats ok!

this is my artfight!

As for my mental health, its been taking a straight dive down, posts will be very few.

so, my old computer might be beyond repair, but i got a new one, it cant run barely any games, but i can much easier post trough it! thats enough for me.

Still, ive been going trough a lot of grief, and the content i can provide is not best because my sketch tablet also is broken, so you might see much less art, ill try to post daily cuz i have a lot of content i simply havent shown, but... it will run out at some point.

love ya all, be safe!

Yo! so, been back in spain for a while now, im atm using my computer, its,,, working? i mean, its not freezing (edit, it did but much later then it would usually), BUT there is no sound, its only static in headphones, luckily i have a phone so ill just watch videos from there

atm cant afford a new computer, so ill just deal with what i got now, my sketchtablet is broken too, so i have been drawing traditionally or on the phone, ALSO, ive gotten SUPER into object shows, like so so much, so be prepared to see 99% object content lol!

All in all, im feeling ok!

Yo so, my laptop was broken, Its ok now, but I gotta take better care of it, might be a lost cause regardless

That aside, for as long as my laptop lasts, i'll be making content!

oh also, i'm still in Scotland but in about a month I think I'll return to Spain, permanently.

Been in scotland for like 22-23 days now, I've learned a lot, and I feel quite happy here, to be with my partner, even if some shit in this country is horseshite.

Tough, I doubt my stay will be permanent, for now- that is. I hope to live with my partner toghether at some point, but for now, things might have to get cut short!